You Are So Much More

You know the saying "We are our own worst critic?". Well, I couldn't agree more!
I have something called perfectionism, a not so well talked about anxiety disorder that changes the way I think about a lot of things (especially myself), and it also explains a lot about why I do some of the things I do.
I really am my own worst critic. In all honesty, it can sometimes be really damaging. I am a lot better than I have been in the past, but there are still times where I am so hard on myself when I really have no reason to be.
However, it's days like today that are a massive accomplishment for me, because today I felt so empowered in knowing that I am incredibly more awesome than I give myself credit for.
It's so easy to feel like we are not good enough or not doing enough, but today I realised that simply isn't true.
Today was pretty hectic, early this morning I woke up screaming in pain with the most random leg cramp of my life, I woke up my poor husband (sorry, Elijah) and unfortunately neither of us could get back to sleep. Nothing I did really helped my leg, but I pushed on. I had a full day of work, it was busy, I was awkwardly hobbling all over the place, which ultimately through my already not so great pregnant back out of whack. Half way through the day I felt fatigued, weak and achy all over, and realised that I was possibly having a minor reaction to the whooping cough vaccine I had received yesterday. However I worked with a smile and got through my day the best I could, and you know what? I absolutely killed it! My last day was the best I've had in a long time, despite my body hating me. My husband and I got home and as much as I just wanted to have a shower, put on my pyjamas and just relax for the rest of the night, dinner still needed to be cooked. I got straight into it and cooked a simple, yet delicious meal for my husband and I. After all that, I got the chance to sit down and relax, then it hit me that I am an incredibly awesome wife. Not in a prideful way, but in an empowering, confidence building and reassuring way, because some days it's really hard for me to feel that. However, it's days like today that make me realise I am so much more than I see myself.

And the best part of it all, was that after I had my long, hot shower, I looked at the makeup-free-and-undone-hair-self in the mirror and I saw a beautiful woman looking back with a huge smile on her face, I saw the woman my husband loves, the woman that I know he wishes I felt more comfortable sharing with the world, and the incredible daughter of God that I am. In that moment I looked past my imperfections and self doubt, and felt a happiness and peace that can only come from a loving Heavenly Father. I have been created perfectly, I am beautiful, I am important, I am known by name by the most incredible being in the universe and He loves me so personally and individually. I know he wants to see me succeed and He wants me to see myself the way he see's me. I saw a quote from Dieter F. Uchtdorf today that said "Compared to God, man is nothing; yet we are everything to God".  And it's so true!

If you don't feel good enough, if you are struggling to see your worth, or to see how incredible you truly are. Please, as hard as it is, Don't compare yourself to others and don't be so hard on yourself. Remember the simple, not so seemingly but actually incredible things that you do. They may not seem like much sometimes, but it's all the little things about us that make us great.

I am so incredibly grateful for the love and empowerment I have felt today, it's been wonderful to be reminded of how awesome I really am and how much I am really loved. It's been a huge blessing for sure!

Stay Blessed,
Jenn

P.S Enjoy the hard for me to post but strangely personally empowering make up free and undone hair selfie. Just remember imperfection spells "I'm Perfect". Though hard to see sometimes, all our imperfections make us perfect.